So I just finished watching 28 Weeks Later. Fantastic film - even better than its predecessor. I'm a sucker for post-apocalyptic films, zombie flicks, and end of the world type stuff. This one however, got me thinking enough to write a bit of a post about it.
Not to spoil the film for anyone (I highly recommend it if you have the means), but it really touches on a quality that I've been noticing more and more about myself and about most other people (humanity I guess in general) lately.
Think for a second, about your strongest strength in life. Whatever that strength may be, I would also contend that in another situation, it is your weakest weakness. I for one, have a special ability to avoid stress in my life. No matter what the situation, how ever grave it may be, I can usually brush off and have a happy night's sleep. My downfall in life (to this point) though, is that I don't get all that passionate about things. Sure, I'll get excited about a certain event, but as far as a long-term goal of achieving a milestone or something - it doesn't really interest me.
Maybe that's what I've been thinking about more and more lately too. What does drive people? I struggle with this question nigh daily. Sure, I want to be successful, but I haven't truly found anything in life that I want to take home and work on. I treasure the ability to go home after work and leave my work there.
I absolutely HATE having to bring work home with me. That's probably why my little business endeavour hasn't really taken off. What i cherish most in life is not working. I suppose I've been moderately successful in my life. Sure, I went to college. Managed to get a degree in four years, but I've never used it.
Success is so subjective a term. I own my home, am married to a beautiful woman, but I'm not ridiculously wealthy - nor will be in the foreseeable future. I won't be attending any galas or events anytime soon - or be a keynote speaker in the next few months.
Yet then, why do i keep wondering if where I've taken my life is right for me? I can look behind me, and see where many of the paths of choice I could have made might have taken me. But even that SENTENCE is filled with so many conditionals that it hurts my head to try to talk about this issue.
Who knows - we'll all probably be dead pretty soon anyway.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Day One....
So I was thinking about doing this for a while now. Kind of like an online journal where everybody could read my most private of privates. Get to know the horrid truth about my unhealthy fantasies over Joe Piscapo.
But really, its more of an exercise to see if I'll keep doing it, and ultimately if it will be meaningful for me or anyone else who stumbles upon it. When I first stumbled upon "blogs" I thought they were ridiculous. I had some friends travel overseas for quite a while (my niece is currently in Japan updating a blog) and realized they were a good way to let people know what was going on in their lives. In that respect the act interested me - but I'm in no position to go globe trotting anytime soon.
I have a lot of time to think at my job. I deliver water for a company here in Denver, and during my days of slinging 5 gallon carboys, i often find myself plodding through what I at least believe to be some fairly amusing thoughts. I really look forward to sharing these thoughts, but the problem is that as soon as I come home from work, I usually get distracted and decide to do something else.
Back to what I was talking about, even if I'm not globe-trotting, I still would at least like to have some sort of chronicle about my day-to-day existence. I'm a big believer in the power of individual people - maybe not so much in the sense as everyone has the ability to change the world in their lifetime - but rather that I believe everyone has a unique perspective on this thing we call life. And through that unique perspective, we all come to a realization that we're all kind of in it together. Its the wonderful thing about consciousness, we all have our own, but its likely tied together on some level, even if that level is nothing more than shared experience.
In order to make this thing worth any kind of a damn, I'm gonna have to remove all sorts of boundaries and limitations I usually place upon myself when expressing how i feel about people, places, and things ( and some of those people, places and things are surely going to react negatively to my honesty ) - but that's the risk you take when you want to chronicle real life.
So enjoy, if you can - and let me know if you like it. I'm sure there are literally billions of these types of things on the web these days - and all of them have their own intrinsic merit, so thanks for taking the time to read this, and I look forward to things in the future. I'll even try to put up some pictures for those of you who can't read.
But really, its more of an exercise to see if I'll keep doing it, and ultimately if it will be meaningful for me or anyone else who stumbles upon it. When I first stumbled upon "blogs" I thought they were ridiculous. I had some friends travel overseas for quite a while (my niece is currently in Japan updating a blog) and realized they were a good way to let people know what was going on in their lives. In that respect the act interested me - but I'm in no position to go globe trotting anytime soon.
I have a lot of time to think at my job. I deliver water for a company here in Denver, and during my days of slinging 5 gallon carboys, i often find myself plodding through what I at least believe to be some fairly amusing thoughts. I really look forward to sharing these thoughts, but the problem is that as soon as I come home from work, I usually get distracted and decide to do something else.
Back to what I was talking about, even if I'm not globe-trotting, I still would at least like to have some sort of chronicle about my day-to-day existence. I'm a big believer in the power of individual people - maybe not so much in the sense as everyone has the ability to change the world in their lifetime - but rather that I believe everyone has a unique perspective on this thing we call life. And through that unique perspective, we all come to a realization that we're all kind of in it together. Its the wonderful thing about consciousness, we all have our own, but its likely tied together on some level, even if that level is nothing more than shared experience.
In order to make this thing worth any kind of a damn, I'm gonna have to remove all sorts of boundaries and limitations I usually place upon myself when expressing how i feel about people, places, and things ( and some of those people, places and things are surely going to react negatively to my honesty ) - but that's the risk you take when you want to chronicle real life.
So enjoy, if you can - and let me know if you like it. I'm sure there are literally billions of these types of things on the web these days - and all of them have their own intrinsic merit, so thanks for taking the time to read this, and I look forward to things in the future. I'll even try to put up some pictures for those of you who can't read.
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